Bad Ending

Sometimes things have to end badly
Sometimes you can't leave any hope
Sometimes you have to stop yourself
From reaching out, and let the ball drop

Sometimes it's better to let him be mad
Cause that means you're finally through
And you can move away, and you can move on,
Finally do what you were meant to do

He's mad and steaming but you're justified
Cause you know he's been misinformed
If you apologized, you could set him right
But this is better for him and for you

And hearing his cries and curses and pain
Yeah, it cuts you right where it hurts
To see the man you thought you had loved
Turning cold, reaching out, and reverse

But he's had it with the back and forth
He finally sees the losing game
Covers up pain with rage, stuck in his cage
You turn away, can't watch anymore

But every one of us goes through this
Though he feels it stronger than most
And you know he'll emerge with time's healing
Unchanged for the better or worse

I thought he was the one that would change me
I thought he was the one I could choose
But he wanted control and wouldn't let go
And I pushed and pulled and strained for a break
I needed my time and I needed my space
And the games we played, only temporary I knew
Cause I thought, I'd come back, like I'd always come back

But he took it too far and he said no more games
And he didn't trust me enough to take care of his pain
The doctor, the sociopath, who just wanted one more
Jealousy sent him in a spin, running for the door

And then I let him go and I let him leave
Cause I knew there was no way he would believe
And when I sat down and thought it all through
I realized I didn't believe it either, so there's nothing to do

The weeks of tearing apart every word that I said
And weeks of jealousy, blame, rage, and respite
I didn't want anymore, didn't care for the taste
Had all I could take and was good for the night

And now the whole thing is over, and that's fine by me
I don't want to see him, or hear him or get him to leave
He can finally move on, and so can I
We've slammed that door shut, fully closed, let it be

Sometimes things have to end badly
Sometimes people don't give you any hope
And sometimes you accept it as part of life
Move on, looking past, and find the growth