Medical School

I've always been sure

of the path I will take.

I've tried to be careful 

of the choices I make

And up to a point

it worked like a dream

I was successful, on-track,

Ahead of the game.

Then I went away

and experienced real life

I changed my views,

and my course,

The whole path of my life.

The old would not do.

and I thought I could change

I had been successful before,

With nothing to blame

But the reality hit

and left me wanting for more

Everyone was set 

when I came in, deplored

The pressure came on

More intense than I knew

I held on so certain

and ready to do

Whatever it took 

to reach my high dream.

And I hit and I ran 

felt powerful as sin

I knew I had got that 

I was there for the win

The dream was mine for the taking

And I wanted it so bad, 

my heart was on fire,

I'd give all that I had.

It was right

and I was there

And I couldn't take it too far.

Like nothing and no one

I'd connected with before.

But  that pressure went up,

All day long, it never ceased . 

And I learned even the thrill seeker 

must remember to breathe.

That sun in the skillet

never let me catch a breath

I was holding on and running

But hurting like death

It was too high and I knew it

And I started to fear.

Afraid of falling, 

afraid of failing 

the one thing I never could do.

And suddenly it's here, 

the end to never is approaching

I've barely entered the game

But, they're passing and expecting

And I'm holding 

But I'm falling 

and failing
for the first time in my life

I'm afraid of the future

but I hold on to the strife

And I still want this much more

than anything I've felt before

The passion that leads me 

It's real as dawn on the shore

But the handholds are getting looser,

and I'm losing my strength,

Because I can't keep loving something 

In which I have no place.

I want it and it hurts,

that unrequited love.

But all I do won't be enough

when I fall from above.