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"I believe we move and have our being in the presence of heavenly messengers and of heavenly beings. We are not separate from them. … We are closely related to our kindred, to our ancestors … who have preceded us into the spirit world. We can not forget them; we do not cease to love them; we always hold them in our hearts, in memory, and thus we are associated and united to them by ties that we can not break."

Joseph F. Smith

Sometimes I'm afraid to forget those I love that are on the other side, because I'm afraid that when I can't remember them anymore they'll just disappear. That's been a fear of mine for a long time, especially with Yannick. But, even if I can't recall the details of Grandpa Louis' face, or the words my paternal grandma said to me last, they're still there. They exist, and they're cheering me on when I make the hard decisions that lead me along the path of righteousness. My grandma was there for me throughout my mission. Yannick is a part of my daily life. Grandma and Grandpa B are there watching me grow up. I love these people, and I won't forget that.

I know I'm living in the past, in a sort of twilight zone of the unseen, some people will probably tell me I need to let go, but sometimes you can't face the possibility of the people you love not being a part of your life anymore. Like Joseph F. Smith said, maybe they aren't so far from us.