What Makes Me Happy

Some thoughts about what makes me happy (in no particular order of course).

1- Rain. I just love it. It smells amazing, makes everything sparkly, cleans out the smog from the city, and cools everything down. It is also perfect for singing, dancing, and kissing in. Which by the way, also makes me happy.

2- Good Food. I prefer to make this myself, because then I can make sure it is good for me as well as tasting good. Put good in, get good out. Taste can be a wonderful sensation and nothing beats a well planned meal.

3- My Family. I could go on and on about how much my family means to me. They understand me, and love me, and always let me know they miss me and will welcome me back home anytime. We have fun together, we have memories together, and I have learned so much from each of them.

4- Knowing I am a child of God. Knowing God loves me and that he would give anything for me, and already has, fills me with incredible joy. At times when no one is around and I feel lonely or unsure of myself, I know I can turn to him and he will guide my life. I am so grateful to Him for the blessings and guidance I have already received in my life.

5- Running. It is such a good outlet for me. Running was the first thing I tried that I wasn't good at and I stuck with it anyway. I have wonderful memories of running with my friends and family. It makes me feel good and it gives me confidence that I can do hard things.

6- Ice. I don't know why I love it so much. Sucking or (sorry) crunching on ice is amazing. It is delicious and hydrating and makes my mouth feel fresh and shivery.

7- Music. Some music can just change my whole day. I love making my own by either playing my cello, trumpet, piano, or more often, just by singing. Finding a good, uplifting song and belting it out all over my house just brings joy to my soul for some crazy reason.

So, those are a few of the things that make me happy. This went a little longer than I expected, but it makes sense I guess, since there are so many things in this life that are here to bring us joy. 7-15-12

Risk

Risk

When your heart is pounding

and your head is warning;

 he says take the risk.

The sparkling water looks inviting;

you know there is no danger,

if he is there with you.

Hold on tight and don’t look down,

 keep your eyes fixed on mine;

Eyes of certainty and trust like the moon.

We’ll get through this together,

and it will all be worth it in the end.

The patient hand beckons, as you long to grasp it.

Life is not meant to be easy;

nor should it be safe and comfortable,

stepping outside,

relying on the faith he will catch you.

No second guessing.

Take the risk.

Leap, Fly, Sing, Love.

Life is short waiting for a tide.

Jump

And you take it.

 You jump and wait for it to hurt.

 Tense for the bone crushing,

 heart splitting, hurt, and let down.

But even at that moment,

the breathless heart stopping moment,

when everything is on the line.

 Your world catches fire.

He is right.

In that moment it is worth it.

Worth the sun, the moon, the heavens.

The eruption of a thousand fireworks,

 the surprise of a thousand birthdays,

and the hopes of a thousand candles,

Only flicker in envy at this sense;

The sense of utter freedom and weightlessness.

 Giving into the loss of control.

Falling

Weightlessly you fly

until you realize you are falling.

 Changing, drawing closer to the end.

And the surface seems too close.

The feeling lasted for an eternity,

yet was over in an instant.

Never ending would be better,

 but gravity won’t work that way.

Endings come, and the risk,

that life changing risk,

is just another among the stories you tell.

Until it fades from view

and the thrill is lost with the memory.